During my later childhood and teenager time it turned out I would develop a highly sensitive as well as melancholy personality.
Facing problems, getting in trouble, seeing injustice or people needing my compassion made me very sad, even angry. I cried more often than was good for me.
In the meantime I learned to control my emotions on a different level. It doesn’t mean things like this don’t touch me anymore. It is just easier for me to get along with them; it as well means than I am helpful and caring – and therefore too often used by people.
Not everything in my life went smoothly and too often I faced trouble or problems. When solutions for them are found, I work on it – and what’s done is gone.
But I have to admit, if a person does anything bad, hurts me, uses me, humiliates me or is just downright evil I will keep that in mind.
It doesn’t mean I can’t forgive. In fact I could, but even if I forgive – I will never forget.
As many other people I had to learn how to handle the past to leave it behind me and concentrate on the future. This was a painful lesson.
I had a coach supporting me with this task and I still am grateful for all the efforts he was going through.
And one day he handed me a little picture with the quote of Lao Tzu:
If you are depressed you are living in the past. If you are anxious you are living in the future. If you are at peace you are living in the present. Lao Tzu
I will never forget. In fact I still have that little card with the quote, even though old and ragged, I’m convinced it will stay with me until it will dissolve.
This is a quote necessary to shake me and my mind awake because we were heading into the wrong direction.
Thank you for all you have done for me, Mr. E. S. B. God bless you.
Aurora Jean Alexander