It’s Christmas time and Holiday,
Joy and celebration all the way.
Only my heart bleeds, it’s crashed and it dies
broken and squashed by five years of lies.
A future and dreams with the man in my life
only a week ago he stabbed my heart with a knife.
Scared I’d find out about the stories he told
I found myself like a trash bag sitting out in the cold.
Pain, humiliation, regret and a loss
he has caused me to stay five years in a fosse.
Fire in my veins caused my soul to start burn
and watch him from ‘my man’ in a monster to turn!
He made me believe our life will be bright
But in truth there was nothing but the darkness of night.
Love, faithfulness, respect and honesty for me
never existed… a shadow was all I could be.
The tears of regret made me nearly drown
It took me a while to calm myself down.
Now I start asking: did he have the right –
to use me like this and cause me this plight?
Five years of my life wasted to this guy
anger washed over me and turned my tears dry.
Nobody has the right to treat me like gnat…
… I matter too, it’s as simple as that!
Somewhere out there the other half of my heart
is waiting for me and our life to start.
No lies and shadows, but a life full of light
is waiting for us – true loving, faithful and bright!!
In the City of Music, there I will be…
dancing New Year’s Eve… square, line, you’ll see…
Fly free, my heart, as swift as a dove,
find him and bring me – the one and true love!!
(Copyright, Aurora Jean Alexander, December 2015)