There are times when I feel hollow
When times drags out the shallow days
The sun, it shines, provides the warmth
That shows the normal summer ways.
Surrounded am I, by furry companions
And people in whose house I live.
I do, what I can, not to be a burden
But I don’t know how much I still can give.
I’m feeling blue, and worse by the hour
I feel forgotten, like I don’t matter at all.
No work, nobody who gives me a chance
To prove my worth – I feel useless and small.
There’s one person in this world who fills my life
With warmth, with smiles, and with some joy
But even he, goes forward and back, undecided
I feel hurt and humiliated, like a toy.
All I need is some success, a chance, some energy
Make me smile, talk to me, and make me feel alive
Currently, I feel alone, in a huge building, my thoughts an echo
Don’t leave me here with only myself – I need to thrive!
Maybe I just wither, unloved, undesired, forgotten and alone
If I just disappear, nobody would care if I slowly fade.
Leave the sunlight, go into darkness, enjoy the moon.
go into the night, accompanied by only shade.
Maybe it’s not the non-chances, or sadness that are killing
Maybe it’s not neglect, or sadness that trigger fears
Maybe it’s more, maybe it’s pain, hurt and loneliness
That make me drown in an ocean of tears….
(Copyright, Aurora Jean Alexander, July 2022)