Imagine there’s wonderful love in your life,
All of a sudden it turns into strife.
Future, perspective, all of it gone
And you’ve got no idea what you have done.
You start learning, what you had was but lies
and love, hope and memories, it all dies.
Life seems a blur and you’re walking through hell
And all there’s left is an empty shell.
This was the man who asked you for your hand
he wanted to marry you he said; a future on sand…
You fly across the world, wearing bubble pink specs
while all he ever wanted was sex.
To the same time, and that really makes you sick
he tells you again, if he could, you were the one he would pick!
The man is a liar, a sociopath of worst sort
And here you realize what he did was just tort!
Confidence, trust and beauty are void
All emotions in you are badly destroyed.
All he’s ever done was lie and screw
Shadows creep out of the darkness in you.
Anger and rage concentrate in your heart
tearing all emotions inside you apart.
You feel used, humiliated, hurt to be told of
him spreading word it was a “one-sided” love.
An emotion of darkness and terrible black,
crawls up in you, spreads out on skin and back.
You try to identify it, simply and clear
it’s neither pain, nor anger, nor is it fear.
It’s darker, it’s blacker, it’s shadow land.
You can’t control it, it gets out of hand.
Then you identify it, almost too late
what you’re feeling now is purest hate.
Ask yourself now, will I permit
that hatred will take over my whit?
That no matter what he’s done wrong…
is he really worth an emotion this strong?
Won’t it be better to keep my heart clear
of an emotion this poisonous and queer?
Probably yes, is the answer I trench
And still my inside wants revenge!
Thank God – I’m a writer… is all I can think
in my book I can make his testicles shrink,
I can shoot, drown and hang him, I know it’s quite tough!
My pen will avenge me – that will be enough.
(March 4, 2016, Copyright Aurora Jean Alexander)