The sun shines warm, the birds are singing,
normally I’d smile, my mood be swinging.
Any moment now the feeling should start
But all I hear is the breaking of my lonely heart.
**
I feel so sad, hanging on a chain
of darkness and misery being hurt all over again.
I’m waiting for freedom of sadness and fears
but all I’m doing is drowning in tears.
**
Being in pain from repeated falls
I feel like prisoner of a hole with high walls.
No way to escape, no chance to climb
my prison was built with blood, pain and time.
**
No chance to free me and nowhere to go
and my hope is dying, that’s all I know.
Yearning for closeness for love and for care
all I got was pain – how could I dare?
**
Instead of an apology I got pain
and what should I say? It was done – again.
I’m asking myself if that’s a new trend
for someone who called himself “friend”.
*****
(Copyright Aurora Jean Alexander, November 2016)

My heart hears your pain. I hate that you feel that way, but love the way you express your pain in poetry. Surely healing will come as you let the pain and loneliness out. Know we are here for you and accept the condolences of friends.
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Thank you s much Rae,
For your encouragement, for your words, and for the compliment on the poem. It is very much appreciated!! And thanks for being my friend and offering me to be there for me. I’m going through a rough time right now.
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Beautiful words, thank you for sharing your inner thoughts with us.
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Thank you, Steph. I’m happy to hear you like the words! It means a lot to me.
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Impressive poem well done. I just wish it didn’t ring true for you. I know the feelings though and the hell that never seems to be extinquished.
I’m here for you, as long as I can hang on.
Love you, Micki
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Thank you so much Micki! You’re a sweetheart. And unfortunately the feeling is too true for me…
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Your heart is in your words. To be hurt by a trusted friend is one of the hardest sword-thrusts of life. Hope you feel better soon, aurora. Have a lovely week … in spite of, okay? 🙂
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Thank you VERY MUCH for everything, Selina.
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Writing, in whatever form it takes, really helps, I believe that. You have written a beautiful piece, I just hope the true sadness behind it doesn’t last too long for you. Best wishes.
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It’s already lasted for a couple months.
Thank you very much for your words. They mean a lot to me.
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A lovely poem, though sad and painful, especially knowing that the feelings are real for you. I wish you gentle healing and many smiles down the road. Take care.
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Thank you so much for your kind words. I’m trying… it’s just not easy.
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