The sun shines warm, the birds are singing,
normally I’d smile, my mood be swinging.
Any moment now the feeling should start
But all I hear is the breaking of my lonely heart.
I feel so sad, hanging on a chain
of darkness and misery being hurt all over again.
I’m waiting for freedom of sadness and fears
but all I’m doing is drowning in tears.
Being in pain from repeated falls
I feel like prisoner of a hole with high walls.
No way to escape, no chance to climb
my prison was built with blood, pain and time.
No chance to free me and nowhere to go
and my hope is dying, that’s all I know.
Yearning for closeness for love and for care
all I got was pain – how could I dare?
Instead of an apology I got pain
and what should I say? It was done – again.
I’m asking myself if that’s a new trend
for someone who called himself “friend”.
(Copyright Aurora Jean Alexander, November 2016)